First impressions

Friendly, polite people 

who smile and laugh easily

common to offer a hand

to say excuse me and please

Big sky and bright sunlight

More green and trees and plants than low desert

Cool in the morning 

lovely penetrating warmth each afternoon

Town is full of shops all full of treasures

Navajo rugs, pottery, and pipes

Coral and turquoise and silver jewlery

Navajos from the rural surround are cowboys

Cowboy boots and big-brimmed hats

Wrangler jeans and western snap front shirts

Rodeo grounds in every  town

Fleshy

Fleshy
I have become a fleshy woman
There are dimples in my upper arms that used to be firm of muscle
My belly is full
I still imagine I may have a flatness in the space of rolls
I imagine it flat again one day
My action is planning
I have an idea of how to accomplish this
I cannot act on my plan

Am I unhappy in my fleshy body?
at times
Is it the body that is the source of the unhappiness?
Not really

Unless the fleshy body is the reason
I find it difficult to love
to love me
to love another

Unless the fleshy body is the reason
I don't trust
don't trust myself to make good choices
don't trust others to be honest and open

Unless the fleshy body is the reason
I am stuck
stuck in a place to which i feel no connection
stuck in a job that I only partially enjoy

Unless the fleshy body is the reason
I am losing interest
losing interest in life
losing interest in living fully